I recently went to a depression group in which someone said to me that she wishes that she had the mania part in Bipolar because depression alone is so difficult. This was in fact a medical professional. Well further education is desperately needed. I speak as a person who has Bipolar and am saying to the world that mania is not a fun symptom that makes me have a good time. Mania is chaotic. And for me the elevation and depression are both terrible and disturbing symptoms to a psychiatric illness.
Mania for me causes discord among family and friends. There is irritability. There are moments (if psychosis beams its ugly head) where questioning my own mind is disturbing and I need to reality check with loved ones. Praying to God for help and assistance when needed helps me to say, “God I can’t handle this anymore, please carry me through this”. The thoughts of suspicion and questioning if it is my mind or is in fact reality is terrifying. What is it that I should do to have trust and faith?
So NO mania is NOT fun! The havoc that can devour a family is not something that I wish for. Though THANKFULLY I have friends and family who can see the turmoil that my mind is questioning and going through. Living with needing someone to assist in both my depressive or manic times is essential.
Depression is encountered and makes me feel so isolated and alone. Yet in contrast, mania involves others and can be seen as a disturbing whirlwind. And for me the anxiety and frantic need for help and having more peace is all-consuming. Examples of this is the chaos seen with some high-profile actors. The ability to outwardly have my illness seen by others can be devastating and so misunderstood because of the stigma. Again I say, IT IS NOT FUN.