There is gratitude in my heart today. I have now realized that I have learned a lot and am grateful to the all the people and obstacles that have been a part of my life. My children are the outpouring of past love that has transpired. My loving husband that I adore is the benefit of the knowledge that has been obtained (along with God’s grace). And the journey of peace and happiness is a daily walk of being mindful of all of the blessings given to me.
I have decided to put the past hurt aside and be thankful for all that it has been given to me and what it has taught me. I have had the pleasure of being a mom to the best kids in the world. It is so true how karma works. I have given my all to my children, and in return they have given me their love and devotion.
I had a twenty-something year marriage to my childhood sweetheart, and I am grateful for the strength that the trials have developed into my character. Our paths may have diverged but the time that we did have together showed me what matters most in my life – the bond of the family unit and my devotion as a mother. Also I am thankful that, as a part of my identity, I have an understanding now that I love being a wife, a unit, a team. This is where my soul thrives and feels safe.
I also have an appreciation of what qualities that I will and will not add to my life with my wonderfully patient and admiring husband. It has been a learning curve where past behaviors have needed to be adjusted and have needed to be re-taught on both our sides. But with the ultimate goal of mutual respect and friendship, we have made those accommodations as needed. Without my past I would never know what brings me the happiness and peace that I need.
Therefore, I give a huge thank you for my past, the blessings, the trials, the despair, the gifts and happiness – for all of it. I know what, and am still learning what, brings me joy and peace. And with my past, I am a little closer and more aware of me, and who I am, and what I want and need in life.