How do I get past a wrong that has been done to me? It has been years that I have suffered due to this action, and I am still living with the after effects. A “friend” thought that it was best to call Health and Human Services on me due to my husband’s anger, and I ultimately lived for years with the consequences. I even acquired Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and lived with the after effects of this, and walked on egg shells for nearly twenty years.
I have a feeling I know who did this offense to me; she even called Human Services on her own daughter once. Perhaps helping instead of destroying may have been a better approach. She truly believes she is the IDEAL mother, the best of the best. Trying to bring down others to make herself feel superior is not a quality of idealism. It is better to help those that are in need before degrading them. Also, looking for recognition and admiration for parenting decisions or abilities is not a normal activity. It truly is not ordinary to live in need of parental esteem, or considerate and compassionate recognition – for that matter.
I truly feel sorry for her. Living her life in need of recognition or esteem and tearing others down must cause an inner turmoil; or does it?? Perhaps she feels a superior obligation to devastate someone. There are other ways to “help” people to maintain or bring someone in need a lift upward with love instead of tearing them apart.
I apologize for the irritable haste of splurging my emotions. This has been decades in the making. Finally, I am releasing the hurt and anger. This is truly a releasing experience. Life is only lived but once, and twenty years of my life were lived with fear, not only from an emotionally angry and abusive ex-husband, but from the repurcussions of his actions which may further destroy my life. And these repurcussions were brought into view by the hand of a “friend”.
I release my anger. I release my burden. And I forgive you – not for you, but for me.